free bird

Kamran a free bird

Go rise higher like a free bird

Go higher higher till you reach the sky

Join the other birds go higher together

rise a little higher to conquer the mountain

If you glance down you see the ocean

If you look up you see the blue sky

Go further higher to swim in the white clouds

If you pass the clouds you see the stars

Rise a little higher to reach the moon

Land on the moon with the other free birds

You have gone far enough to dance with the angels

Don't stay on the moon you can still go higher.

Go higher higher, go higher higher

Go higher higher, go higher higher

I'm not sure

I'm not sure

I'm not sure if i smile or to cry any more

I'm not sure if i fly or to die

I'm not sure if i dream in my sleep

or i scream in my dreams

I'm not sure what to believe any more

I'm not sure what's right or wrong any more

I'm not sure who to love or to trust any more

I'm not sure what i want any more

But i'm sure there is a God who loves me.

I was suffering and confused after Kamran's death so this poem came to my mind, i never gave up on God even at those harsh moments.He was the one who walked me through my sorrow.

Looking for Kamran

I glanced at a white blossom on a rose bush, thinking it might be you

I glanced at the moon in the blue sky, thinking that might be you

The brightness of a star caught my eyes, thinking that might be you

A beautiful butterfly passed by me, thinking it might be you

I saw a free white bird flying over the blue see, thinking that might be you

I saw a beautifully piece of white cloud floating in the sky, thinking that might be you

I heard a singing voice from a singer bird, thinking it might be you

I searched every corner of the blue sky for you

I searched every tree with the blossom for you

I searched between the stars for you

But at the end i found you here in my heart.

For the memory of Kamran

Somebody somewhere
Love me true
I am so lonly
Love me tender
Somebody somewhere
Hold me true
I am so lonly
Hold me tight
Somebody somewhere
Come to my life
Make my heart move
Don't leave me
Somebody somewhere
Bring me peace
I am so lonly
I need it
Somebody somewhere
Somebody somewhere.

THis poem came to my mind shortly after Kamran was gone and i felt so distress and in desperate need of finding him.