memory of Kamran

These days not much come to my mind but the memory of Kamran.
Kamran, if you are missed among us,
it's because of your selflessness spirit and giving heart.
Kamran, if you are gone still signs of your goodness exist among us.
Your charming smile, your way of unity, your humanity captured our heart.
Your way of easing everybody's sadness and strengthen our heart still exist among us.
Kamran, i learn from you to have a purpose in life.
To learn from my mistake and grow from my failure.
Kamran you were the greatest in heart and purest in spirit.
I always remember you as an angel with no wings.
Love you for ever:Momy

happy mother's day, to my wonderful mom

Momy,
every time i look above the rainbow
i see you there.
Momy,
every time i look into my heart
i feel you there.
Momy,
every time i reach for support and advice
i hear you there.
Momy,
every time i see you in my dreams
i squeeze you there.
Momy,
every time i need a shoulder to cry on
i find you there.
Momy,
every time i go through your pictures
i think of you there.
Momy,
every time i search for someone to talk to
i have you there.
Momy,
every time i want to be beautiful and graceful
i look up to you there.
Momy, you are the most compassionate human being.
Momy, please feel my infinite love for you.
Momy, i hope you hear the deeper meaning behind those words.
From Quran 46/15
And we did enjoin on man to be kind and caring to his /her parents: his mother bore him with hardship and delivered him with hardship: and the bearing of him and the weaning of him took her almost thirty months. When he attained strength and maturity and he was forty years old, then he prayed: O, my Creator! Bestow upon me the opportunity of expressing my gratefulness to you for your favour which you have bestowed upon me and my parents; and that i may do good deed in a way that may acquire your pleasure; and grant me righteous offsprings: truly i have turned to your way sincerely and i am one of the Muslims
46/16
From such men we shall accept the best of their deeds and we shall disregard their evil deeds: they shall be, among the dwellers of Paradise; a true promise which was made to them.
Fram Bible, PROVERBS 6/20-23
Do not forsake your mother's teaching. Bind them upon your heart forever; fasten them around your neck. When you walk, they will guide you; when you sleep, they will watch over you; when you awake, they will speak to you. For these commands are a lamp, these teaching is a light, and the corrections of discipline are the way to life.

what's wrong with peace?

Faisal Shahzad, living American dream, married, well educated wife, two beautiful children, master's degree. He was in custdy late monday for his terrorism act. I have one huge and also a simple question for you. What else did you want? Didn't you have anything better to do in your life but killing the innocent people? Did you have that much extra time on your hand? If you did, how about spreading peace and love, how about making God happy by following him, how about spending this extra time for your children to raise them in a wonderful way that when they grow up they be spreading love and peace every where they go. Doesn't God want love and peace on his earth and among his creations. Isn't love and peace that God talk about in all his holy books? I don't know who's foot steps you were following. Killing innocent people. It got to be evil's foot steps. It's kind of late for you to wake up but isn't too late for some others that are carrying evil thoughts.

who Kamran was

I lost my beloved son Kamran, on september 22nd-2009.

He was as beautiful as flowers.

He was as innocent as birds.

He was as peaceful as the sky.

He was as pure as the angels.

He was as green as te forests.

He was as warm as the sun.

He was as active as the clouds.

He was as sweet as honey.

He was as shiny as the stars.

He was as joyful as the music from heart.

He was as delicate as the sea breeze.

He will always be my angel, always.

free bird

Kamran a free bird

Go rise higher like a free bird

Go higher higher till you reach the sky

Join the other birds go higher together

rise a little higher to conquer the mountain

If you glance down you see the ocean

If you look up you see the blue sky

Go further higher to swim in the white clouds

If you pass the clouds you see the stars

Rise a little higher to reach the moon

Land on the moon with the other free birds

You have gone far enough to dance with the angels

Don't stay on the moon you can still go higher.

Go higher higher, go higher higher

Go higher higher, go higher higher

I'm not sure

I'm not sure

I'm not sure if i smile or to cry any more

I'm not sure if i fly or to die

I'm not sure if i dream in my sleep

or i scream in my dreams

I'm not sure what to believe any more

I'm not sure what's right or wrong any more

I'm not sure who to love or to trust any more

I'm not sure what i want any more

But i'm sure there is a God who loves me.

I was suffering and confused after Kamran's death so this poem came to my mind, i never gave up on God even at those harsh moments.He was the one who walked me through my sorrow.

Looking for Kamran

I glanced at a white blossom on a rose bush, thinking it might be you

I glanced at the moon in the blue sky, thinking that might be you

The brightness of a star caught my eyes, thinking that might be you

A beautiful butterfly passed by me, thinking it might be you

I saw a free white bird flying over the blue see, thinking that might be you

I saw a beautifully piece of white cloud floating in the sky, thinking that might be you

I heard a singing voice from a singer bird, thinking it might be you

I searched every corner of the blue sky for you

I searched every tree with the blossom for you

I searched between the stars for you

But at the end i found you here in my heart.

For the memory of Kamran

Somebody somewhere
Love me true
I am so lonly
Love me tender
Somebody somewhere
Hold me true
I am so lonly
Hold me tight
Somebody somewhere
Come to my life
Make my heart move
Don't leave me
Somebody somewhere
Bring me peace
I am so lonly
I need it
Somebody somewhere
Somebody somewhere.

THis poem came to my mind shortly after Kamran was gone and i felt so distress and in desperate need of finding him.

laugh and cry(in memory of Kamran)

I thought i never laugh again.
With all the pain i,ve been through.
I thought i never laugh again.
With my broken heart.
I thought i never laugh again.
With my broken wings.
I thought i be smashed to pieces.
After you were gone,my angel.
I thought i never smile again.
After you took my soul with you.
God lifted my spirit and gave me strength.
I think, i never cry again, never again.

To my wonderful father

Your face is full of grace.
Your hands is full of frienliness.
Your eyes is full of happiness.
Your heart is full of kindness.
Your thoughts is full of forgiveness.
Your smile is so precious.
Your wisdom is so priceless.
Your persuade is so courageous.
I look into you with all the brightness i see in you.