I'm not sure

I'm not sure

I'm not sure if i smile or to cry any more

I'm not sure if i fly or to die

I'm not sure if i dream in my sleep

or i scream in my dreams

I'm not sure what to believe any more

I'm not sure what's right or wrong any more

I'm not sure who to love or to trust any more

I'm not sure what i want any more

But i'm sure there is a God who loves me.

I was suffering and confused after Kamran's death so this poem came to my mind, i never gave up on God even at those harsh moments.He was the one who walked me through my sorrow.